Hi. I'm new to the group, but not new to BPD. I was unknowingly dx with personality disorder in 1998. Read "I hate you, don't leave me" and thought "This is me!" I felt insecure, angry, and shame. Now, I just started seeing a new psychiatrist and she dx me with BPD. I know I have it. I hate that I have it. I want to keep it a secret, but had to tell my husband. Now I fear he will use my dx to explain me (my thoughts, emotions, and behavior) away to himself and others. I feel trapped in this dx.