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Originally Posted by herethennow
thank you clara. i guess in this state, it's really hard to believe. it feels like it's easier to believe what your brain is saying to you.. on repeat, everyday.. 24/7. it gets tiring.
im falling apart into a muddle of mess and i don't know how to pick myself up.
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I kind of feel like a loser, with the depression lasting as long as it has. But I don't think you're a loser. For some reason, I seem to apply the rules differently to myself. I just need to remind myself that I just haven't found the right antidepressant yet or need to work on perspective/coping skills with my T some more. Hang in there and keep posting. Things will get better for you, I know they will.
Editing this to say that I'm sitting here at the AA administrative office volunteering with nothing to do (it's usually dead), so I'm studying the notes I have to take when reading books for my book clubs. (The ECT has screwed up what used to be a very good memory). Just asking myself if I should really be in these book clubs if I have to take notes and study!