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Ipse...I think you are pretty smart ...about yourself and what you need to do.... You can see it. You need to be good to you and ask for what you need. I think you are coming along... Part of taking care of yourself may be to check in with her if you have not heard back in a timely fashion...whatever you deem that to be.

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Nikki4520 said:i know only too well how very hard those feelings are to handle sometimes, but in my opinion (for what its worth) there is nothing more powerful than being in love and IF that power can be channelled into something positive there is real chance of change...

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thanks for more supportive words. (Ipse Dixit is defined as: "an assertion made but not proven.")

---- i am pretty sure that after 3 weeks, I'd give my therapist a call if she doesn't get back with me.

---- and i might have said this before, but i can see every "logical truth" about how skewed my self-image is and logically what the "answers" to my questions are. it is all logically laying out there in front of me, as clear as the keys on the keyboard i'm using the type this. i do think my work with my therapist in the past 3 years has enabled the logical items to be laid out in that way (not all of them...but many of them)

however.....my untamed, misguided and untaught, beaten up (literally and figuratively), molested and neglected emotions...now buried in an unreachable hole or cave or cell somewhere inside of my core...cannot see and understand any of the logic...much less reach it or touch it.

i don't have the language, it seems, to understand my emotions - a language that is as elusive to understand for me as is, say, Chinese or Japanese. It seems I don't even know the alphabet to translate what I know "logically" into a language my "emotions" speak.

perhaps one day I might find the "emotional Rosetta Stone" to bring the logical and emotional language together.

until then...i remain in my stalemate............................