I just wanna say thanks for writing that as I relate to a lot of what you say and you have articulated yourself so well.

I often feel disconnected from everything, as if I am just there and my attempts to engage with the world just backfire and I end up making myself more and more neurotic. I work in data entry and have these ruminations sometimes where I just zone out and get a bit obsessive and repetitive that I've done everything right. I don't think I'm cut out for doing much else, I used to be a home care assistant but frequently got overwhelmed and ended up getting tension pains a lot. I get over stimulated and often think I'm not cut out for this life without getting too precious about it although I do think life can be a wonderfully enriching thing and is worth living, I'm stuck in this bubble drifting aimlessly about. I'm either too intense or feel empty and my concentration is getting worst and worst. I've tried concentration pills but they don't seem to be helping.