(((I.Am.The.End.)))

Big hugs for you my friend. I am in the same boat! I also do not have a very good support system. I do not have any family at all. I understand your plight very well.
You are not the only one who has no family. I have a few friends who don't keep up with me very often.

You are not rambling, you are just venting. It is ok. I will say that there is hope, though. There is always hope to hang on to.

May I send you a friend request?