The only thing that makes me feel anything, while on antidepressants, is alcohol. I need the antidepressants for severe panic attacks brought on by the damage wellbutrin did to my brain so I have no good choice here. Either give up my emotions and not kill myself or live a numb life without passion, love or happiness.

We all chase after some kind of emotion and the emotion I most chase after is that awe inspiring moment when I read a poem or understand a great idea that changes my life. Im only going to get that sort of emotion while drinking now. It's the only thing that makes me feel anything.