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Old Jan 14, 2015, 05:39 PM
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Originally Posted by 0dysseus View Post
The only thing that makes me feel anything, while on antidepressants, is alcohol. I need the antidepressants for severe panic attacks brought on by the damage wellbutrin did to my brain so I have no good choice here. Either give up my emotions and not kill myself or live a numb life without passion, love or happiness.

We all chase after some kind of emotion and the emotion I most chase after is that awe inspiring moment when I read a poem or understand a great idea that changes my life. Im only going to get that sort of emotion while drinking now. It's the only thing that makes me feel anything.
I know what you mean. I used to have those moments as a younger person. Is it worth possibly harming yourself though? It's a hard tradeoff. When I was younger I hated the zombification but now I just don't care, well worth it to get rid of the hallucinations I have.