I think "not wanting to get better" really just means that you're afraid you cant get better, and that you're afraid to give up whatever ways you've developed to cope, kind of like saying well my life sucks but change sucks too, and since I'm not sure my life will ever not suck why should I try change which will be hard and will also suck. I get it. When things have been bad for a long time, I think a lot of us start to think we cant get better, we lose hope. And the definition of depression is pretty much just feeling hopeless.

I think it really is positive to admit, because it's a huge leap of self-honesty, and now that you see that you don't want to get better you are just a step away from making a lot of connections... for example, saying maybe I'm afraid I cant get better, and maybe I keep relying on my old coping mechanisms because of it... and then a step away from saying, well maybe I should try something new, and maybe just maybe I will actually get better. It will take time but I think ultimately you will come to realize that feeling hopeless is maybe a way of coping with things being so crappy.

You CAN get better. It probably wont be easy, and change and giving up old ways of coping does suck, but I bet your life can really improve. You can be honest with yourself, and I think that's huge, that's everything actually. You can do all that and not have to worry about people withdrawing their support. I've found that support is there as long as I need it, and I feel more supported sometimes the more I try and the better I'm doing.