I have flunked out of school because of this issue... if you are like me, it's not even like it is too much.... there is just something in the way. I will do things like finish a paper and then make some elaborate excuse why it wouldn't print and then never hand it in or just have a bibliography to do where I could hand it in without and at least get some marks but instead I just never hand it in and fail.

It's so frustrating because I am smart and these tasks are so do-able. I screw myself over to the point where I won't leave my house because I'm afraid things will catch up with me. I can't even bring myself to put sheets on my bed or open my mail. My credit is toast, I get fired from jobs, and I am sure I'm kicked out of school because I didn't hand in any papers or buy the books even.... I can't force myself to open that letter either.

It's like being trapped in a bad nightmare, but waking up is gonna be a severe dose of reality too... I can't even force myself to eat something or take my meds... I just hope I don't do something stupid like not go to my psychiatrist appointment in July... I've been on a wait list since February.