I'm terribly impatient. I know I need to learn that virtue, but it's so hard. I've always been an instant gratification type of person. If I don't see improvement right away, I get so discouraged that I stop doing whatever it is that I'm doing as I don't see the worth in doing it.

I'm very scared of getting rid of things within me. I use them as a security blanket to protect me from the hostile outside world. If I don't have my security blanket, I'll be open to attack. I'll feel so utterly vulnerable.

This would be easier if I had friends....