I am searching for a new therapist after the one I'd been working with for over a year turned weird and then terminated me. It was a really difficult time and I really feel abandoned and re-traumatised.
I've had about 2 months break and am now trying to find a new one to work with but I find myself feeling very scared to start therapy again, I can't imagine being able to trust any of them not to do what the last two therapists have done.

I've been in touch with a couple of real possibilities and I just get a sinking feeling and a real panic when I think about starting again with another therapist. I just burst into tears reading their email reply to me. Just from the panic of starting with someone new or making the wrong choice or at the prospect that it could all go wrong again.

I know there's good therapists who stick with their clients thru thick and thin, I see evidence of it on these boards but I have zero confidence in me finding one of those.
I don't see anyway of knowing for sure that any future therapy won't turn to s-h-i-t. No matter how carefully I vet them, how clearly I lay out what my issues are etc and that's just scary to me.

Help!