Having lost my faith is an absolutely devastating feeling and it's definitely not OK for me. This is a new way of life that I don't care for, it's not me or who I am. I've always had a very deep belief in who I thought was my God. To suddenly lose that feeling after 56 years is like I said, devastating and I just don't understand why this is happening. I am not expecting anyone to fix it for me here or make it seem ok.