I know I have . But still he says its out of respect to me . That response just makes no sense . Honestly this is the third time and I am getting to the point where my emtions are taking over and I am unbable to be rational anymore. I love him but I cant keep doing this up and down its affecting me mentally and its affecting him which hurts even more ;because then I just start to think its me and my fault and why cant I be normal.