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No antipsychotics have ever did anything for me.
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True here. My pdoc and everyone else keeps asking me if I hear voices and I made the mistake of saying "yes". I do have visual hallucinations, but no auditory ones. I got pumped full of AP but the voices are still there.
I got to talk to a skitzo in the hospital and compared my voices to a hallucatory one. She said that mine were odd because mine don't ever go away and I have intelligent conversations with them. We also take votes on what to do and not to do. My "command voices" come from renegade alters.
My life is segmented. I generally can't build a timeline of my day. The number of times I say "I can't believe I did that". I'll find stuff moved around that I know I didn't move even though I'm alone. I'll do things and not remember doing them, the memory seeming like a dream leaving me not sure if I did them- this screws me when it comes to taking meds. I find notes in my hand writing that I have no memory of writing.
So there's no question I'm not psychotic or delusional, even though I do wonder at times.