This is my first time up here. I hate having secrets. None of my close friends or family member know that I relapse. I abuse prescription drugs. Anything I can get my hands on, I take. I've been clean for 2 and a half years until recent. I need the help, but I don't know where to go from here. I had a lot going through that I choice not to deal with. So I turned to drugs to help suppress my emotions.