Wow. I am just blown away. I thought there was something seriously wrong with me because of my attachment and feelings for my therapist. Oh my God the feelings themselves have upset me so much. Which is why it upset me soooo much when he told I wasn't physically attractive to him and so he would not date me (if he wasn't already married and already my therapist, etc.) I just freeze up towards the end of the session knowing I can't take him with me. I sort of half joke with him that I wish he would adopt me like a lost puppy and take me home with him. I would follow him around just like one I am so attached to him. He is on vacation right now and it is brutal. He has said nice things to me in the past, like he understands and affirms that this may be the most important relationship in my life and it is okay and it is a treasure to cherish. he never makes fun of me at all about my feelings for him. I have had sexual fantasies about him a few times over the years and he knows that too. It has been so brutal for me dealing with this issue of my feelings because of my history with my father . I had sex with my father till I was , like, 31. I did not start till I was older though, 19 or 20. I was coming from a very screwed-up life and I genuinely thought being sexual with him would lead him to loving me when he said he did not. (That went on for years as I say and it was soooooooo painful; it just broke my heart that I was not good enough for him to love me and particularly that I was not pretty enough for him to love me (though in retrospect he DID get erections.) So you can imagine how hurtful it felt when my therapist, who I am so attached to and love, told me I was not psychically attractive enough for him. It just blew out of the water. I am okay now though I have not been able to talk to him since cause he's on vacation ....! I have another 8 days to go before our next scheduled appointment. I have been writing him letters about my hurt feelings because he lets me do that since sometimes I am uncomfortable talking about things in person or I need to talk to him between sessions in my head. But I am not crazy or stupid! Others fall in love with their therapists too! This happened one time before many many years ago .... although I was not with that therapist for very long compared to this one... and we ended up sleeping together. My current therapist knows this too. (That therapist stopped our relationship by resigning from his post.) I have so much shame and hurt from these two relationships ... one with my father and the other with the old therapist years ago. Sometimes I just feel so alone and so obsessed and so confused. I am so thankful for this website and particularly this post. Thank you thank you thank you. I can't wait to tell my T about it!