Hi there,
I'm kind of in the same boat as you. All they want me to do is take more medication, and last time I went in to the pdoc I actually started crying because I tried to tell her I couldn't bring myself to take MORE medication and she's like "You're choosing to be miserable, I'm not even gonna argue with you", and I wasn't even arguing! I would change pdocs if I were you, and try to take up some different things to help keep you happy and going. I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but it'll get better. Hope this helped a little.