You will overcome that . Only if you want to controll yourmind from feeling helpless which its not because your still alive . Meaning you still have a chance to make your choices . Learning to choose your own destiny is hard but as you can see its harder to have others choose for you . I hope you feel better and every change starts with just a positive thought. Always remember how lucky you are to be alive because those that are dead have no choose anymore . I believe in you .