Before I start let me just say I tend to analyze people and I forget that I shouldn't try to analyze myself. So please don't tell me I shouldn't self diagnose I know I shouldn't.
I feel like I have many traits of each cluster b personality but I would never say that I am a specific one.
I've always felt I was and am different from other people. I know I'm better then other people but I also know there are some people better then me. The majority of the time I'm very confident some people call me vain and self center. I may be a little selfish but I wouldn't say I'm self centered and vain. I love to be the center of attention. It bothers me when I'm not be paid attention to. I'm very sensitive about myself. I don't take rejection well. When Im rejected I feel like there is something wrong with the person rejecting me. I get very upset when I'm rejected. I'm hypersexual and very impulsive. I don't like the past or future I prefer the now. I go through periods of emptiness. I feel empty at least once a day I hate it. Actually I've had an overall empty feeling this past week. When I feel empty i pretend I am not. I use to self inflicted pain to try and make myself feel something other than emptiness. I am a very sympathetic person, I pitty many people. But I lack empathy. I have rarley felt empathy and when I have it was usually for my mother. I almost feel bad that I don't feel empathy. Because I know most people feel empathy I pretended to be empathic for others. I see no harm in emotionaly hurting other people for my own benefit. I have no problem admiting that I act out to get what I want. I'm not a violent person but I do have fantasize of hurting others but that's something that concerns me and I'm not sure if I would act on or not depending on the situation and people.
My boyfriend thinks I'm histrionic he thinks I have every symptom. But I disagree because I don't ever start drama anymore I just like attention. I wouldn't always go out of my way for attention but I do get upset without it. My mom and even some of my friends have told me I'm narcissistic probably because I'm "overly" confident. I have two friends who are both diagnosed with aspd (neither believe they are antisocial) one of them thinks I'm a narcissist the other thinks like him. ( I'm very drawn to those two.)
Do I sound like I have traits of any personalities in cluster B, if yes which ones does it seem I have. Or to go further in general do I sound like I may have a personality disorder? I could just be overthinking I do that but I still feel like I'm not "normal".
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