<font color="#000088">I know when I was abused my abuser raped me with certain objects,before himself,but why do I freeze up when I see those certain objects now as an adult.Thier very common objects,but I freeze up when I see them,and sometimes I'll start having a panic attack over it! A few months ago,my brother,who was the abuser put one of those objects in my mailbox,just to harrass me,for fun! I let the neighbor kid have it for camping!But he put it there on purpose,it felt like he was abusing me again,but emotionally! </font>