My mood just plummeted, all I want to do is cry but I haven't the energy for more than a few unsatistfying tears.
The only way out I can think of is to stop eating and waste away, it would be very,very, slow as I'm not skinny. I don't even know if that is just a wish or if I'm serious. Maybe it is like the sui and si thoughts, another torment to make this illness even more cruel.
I would love to run away, but depression would hitch a ride on my shoulders, there is no escape, this is forever.
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