Been asking weeks now for T to ask the person who has the report when I will get the results. She promised me that she would ask yesterday as everyone was going to be at the weekly team meeting (it was the first one for the year) but of course she forgot and I am still in the unsettling place of being in limbo and not knowing what is going on. She also said she would send a fax to my GP but nope that never happened either.

Don't get me wrong I am not upset she didn't do the above things I am upset that she felt she had to defend herself by listing all the reasons why she didn't. We just all needed/ wanted to know when she would now be able to do those things..

so my last txt to her last night was "all good doesn't matter enjoy the rest of your night it sounds like you deserve it"

I don't remember anything else but looking through my phone this morning ella was out and she was quite angry and mad. I think I may have taken more meds than I am meant to and we also cut

....no need to worry though cuz already have an appt with a GP this afternoon but he is going to be so mad *cries*

I just don't know how much longer I can keep going like this. Not having control. I can't do it anymore. I just can't do it.