Lozza, feeling sad and sorry hearing your story. Hope you find a way to at least stop SI. Hurting the body only makes the other areas that we confront worse.

It sounds very unprofessional of your T not to file the report. If it was me and I wasn't feeling good about the situation, I might explore other options. But don't do anything rash like quit because some areas have a longggggggggggg waiting list for T's for new patients. A therapist that is some good is better than no therapist.

You have a gp. What about a psych doc or psychiatrist? Many members of PC report having symptom relief after getting prescribed meds from a professional trained in the area of your symptoms.

You may want to explore some other forums.