This seems like it's just a simple trip.... then it was 2 hours long, telling about masturbation method/si. I'm just done. Let alone finding out that there is a sore inside.... and a BV infection. I have a male T... how do I even approach this topic. He knows about the si/masturbation method in detail but he just doesn't understand fully. Now knowing that there was damage... will it keep me away from it?? I just don't know.

Addiction is a hard thing to treat. infections are easier...... but I still want that pain what if I turn to some other type of pain..... the pap was painful.... which felt good but at the same time didn't.... I feel like all the progress I made over the last 24 hours is gone. I'm scared about tomorrow with T.