Justice,
I'm so sorry...you felt like he was abusing you again because he WAS (not yelling, I'm so angry he'd do that to you).

My story is quite a bit different, but my older brother also abused me (we were left to live together in various homes after our folks died)...this was persistent and went on for a few years. Fast forward to when he broke his neck in a car accident --- he's a quadraplegic now, I know he can't hurt me anymore or my kids, but it's my family who is abusive now: My family set me up to be the one legally to take care of his housing stuff...

[[[ sigh ]]] my family knows what he has done, but becuase he's in the wheelchair my life doesn't mean anything to them and it's all about keeping him out of a care facility.

not meaning to highjack this thread, Justice, but I know what it's like having Triggers lurk around a corner unexpectedly...

...my eldest son looks like my brother, that one bothers me the most. once in awhile I'll walk by him and just jolt - until I remember it's my precious boy.

take care