(((Clandestine13)))

First, welcome to PC. I am glad that you are reaching out. I will say that there is something that is always true. There is always hope. I understand your feelings of hopelessness, though. I am sorry that you broke up with your girlfriend. I know if must feel very lonely but I think you will meet someone new. It may not feel like it right now or you may not even be ready but in time your outlook will improve. Do you have a therapist that you can go to? I really hope that you feel better very soon.
I can only send you (((hugs))) from afar.