Things can change, but it is hard to hang on sometimes. Just remember, (kind of talking to myself, kind of hoping to help), pain isn't forever, good things eventually happen. I'm so thankful for the support here. We all are. If it hadn't been for this forum, to release my feelings and get support, I may not have made it. It is a difficult life, but there has to be some beauty in it. I see it here, this place, even though people are suffering we reach out to each other.