Asia, seeing that you've gone through so much with intense attachment to therapists and terminations, would you consider trying a type of therapy that puts less focus on attachment and more on revealing and understanding emotions and thoughts or skill-building? Maybe group therapy or CBT-focused therapy. Maybe time-limited groups that would prevent the shock of sudden termination.

I see so much pain in these forums related to attachment and termination and have trouble understanding how it can be helpful. I also consider therapy a series of steps and sometimes groups and skill-building can be an important step that prepares us for the intensity of individual therapy where attachment and transference are more likely to take place.

I wish you the best and hope you find some good therapeutic situations.