You are dealing with an incredible amount of all sorts of different things all hitting you at once. Seeking out support, especially from someone who is reliable and invested in helping, seems responsible not indulgent. How can you do all of that and be there for others if you aren't taking care of yourself?
I use the airplane oxygen mask analogy when I think about this type of thing. When the cabin pressure drops and the masks appear, whose mask do you attend to first? The person near you that needs help or your own?
You can't possibly help others or even be there if you don't attend to yourself first. I understand not wanting to feel indulgent or needy. I really do and struggled with that. It still comes up, but when I know I'm in for a bumpy ride, I call in for reinforcements. It sounds like your therapist would totally get that and try to help you out.
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