I haven't cried but for awhile did almost every day OUTSIDE of my sessions. I can't cry in front of my T., I guess, because of the maternal transference and I wasn't allowed to cry when I was little.

I've told her I want to so much. It will be a great moment if I ever do. I happen to think about this last night and wrote in my journal that I want to cry in front of her so I can experience the response I should have gotten from my mom.