My T is a therapist. MA level. and I am sorry to say I don't think I've addressed her by name or anything - to her face. I've had this conversation with myself. "Why can't I think of T by her first name?" Why can't I just walk in one day and say "Hello, (firstname)" ?

When I talk about her to people I call her "my therapist." I feel uncomfortable with using her first name in my head. Sometimes I practice writing it out when journaling about therapy because I think it's related to some deeper issues I have with casual connections and trust etc. Like maybe I'm trying to avoid further transference issues.

Come to think of it- she doesn't use my name that often either. LOL. I've heard her address me by name on rare occasions- usually in a big moment.

But it would be a nice grerting if instead of just "Hello, how are you?" She said "Hello, (Myname), How are you?"