Quick reply as I'm on my way to my therapy appt..

"I can't recall if you've said what your family is like... but can you move back in with someone in your family?"

No, there isn't a family option for me.

"It is actually reasonable to want to be financially indepedent from a bf/gf; he is supporting you financially 100% and it would make sense for someone to become upset/resentful for that (honestly, I would never support someone to that extent unless we were basically married and something happened.... I would never start a relationship where I would be paying for them for everything...)."

Yes, I feel incredibly guilty for this aspect. I could have applied for disability sooner but I didn't. We did intend on becoming married. I always thought that the situation would eventually become reversed; me supporting him. I just became worse off(social anxiety)/learned(through medical evaluations, basically) that school/work would be off the table, at least for the near future. I know this was a huge mistake on my part and I regret letting things turn out that way.