Just this week I've gone thru;

-Blah (normal I guess)
-crying/pissed/very depressed and wanting to crawl in a hole and disappear
-happy, laughing with my family and being goofy
-kinda depressed and generally blah
-today I'm going up and up... got a large sum of money coming and I can just feel the storm coming and I'm going to do something really, really dumb and I won't be able to control myself... like a one way plane ticket somewhere kinda dumb?...