Today I was less tearful than yesterday, but I can feel anxiety starting to lurk in the shadows and trying to catch up with me. I've plenty to be anxious about, with my job situation, but I need to be mindful of the "normal" anxiety that anyone would feel if they were about to lose their job and the sinister anxiety that will tear me apart.

I did some searches for jobs, but nothing came up and I lost heart after an hour. I don't have an hour to spare for housework, let alone a social life and now I am spending time I just don't have on job hunting. Can you get a time overdraft?

Later on, I opened my emails and found I have to complete a numerical reasoning test for the job I applied for 2 weeks ago. That is something at least, I am hoping that if I pass the test I will get called for interview. I am worried as the test is timed and my concentration and thinking are somewhat impeded by depression. I am usually OK with both tests and numbers, so really this shouldn't cause me too much difficulty. I need to remember that I do have the skills, I just need to locate them.