Well the nineteenth is Monday. Why does that matter? I'm supposed to get my monthly Invega injection. But, I don't have a pdoc right now. So I have no way of getting it.

See, I was getting it from my partial program from oct to dec. then I was discharged from my partial program. I went back to my mental health agency but every time I show up there again I have to basically start over as a new patient. So I have to wait to see the pdoc for another evaluation, and the earliest eval appt they had was for February twelfth, almost a month after my shot is due. I really don't know what to do. I'm so worried about being off my med. I've been stable for almost two months, and I don't know how much is due to the ECT and how much is due to the right meds. And I don't want to find out. I cannot afford another episode. Literally.

I can't go back to the PHP, I already called and asked and they said sucks to be you we can't help (maybe not in so many words). i can't just pick up the med and ask my GP to inject it - I need free samples because my insurance doesn't cover Invega and that ****'s $1000.

I'm seeing my new T on Tuesday - he is through the same agency so maybe I can beg him to explain my situation to the APN and ask her to get me in earlier.

I'm just worried. I don't want this to throw me off. obviously there's no way to taper down from an injection - you either get it or you don't. I just hope missing a month won't do too much damage. I remember the last time I did ECT I was actually able to function off meds for six years. So maybe I don't even need it anymore.

I guess I'll find out.