I think it might be a stretch to say that my attachment issues are completely healed but I do think that things have changed for the better, both because of therapy and because of growing into a deeper and more mature emotional relationship with my partner. I no longer hope that random people will notice my pain and take care of me and cast about for the right person to fixate on. I no longer develop intense relationships where I basically want someone to marry and adopt me and think I'm soooo special.

I have some difficulty with the limits on the therapeutic relationship in that i feel like there is often a mismatch between my needs (ginormous) and her capacity to be there for me (very limited). Sometimes this feels almost wrenchingly painful and other times it's not that much of an issue. I wish I didn't have an aching need to be cared for like that but I can sometimes understand how it came to be that way for me (which helps me to feel like less of a loser for it) and sometimes get what I need from relationships outside of therapy.

At the moment I feel positive about the whole attachment thing. I think it feels less horrid than it used to. But it may well be that tomorrow I'll post some long thing about my unmanageable neediness and beg you guys for reassurance. it's far from being a linear process...