Ive been looking into EMDR and according to the books I have been reading the person is supposed to be more centered into the here and now and remain non emotional and non judgemental when they think about the memory they are working on reducing the trigger for and after looking at it from the non emotional side they pick a word that helps them and then uses tapping and moving eyes and repeating a sound and their word whenever they get triggered by something in the here and now. from what I can see so far its like removing the panic before a dissociator ends up dissociating into reliving that memory emotions and all.

My therapist from a long time ago gave me this link when she was having me try EMDR. I couldnt do it because I didn't know back then what my triggers are so we could not match a trigger to a memory. And I had no emotions (flat effect) anyway unless I was dissociated and EMDR is supposed to be done when not dissociated.

But my therapist now and I tried doing it some of it today by doing phase 1. most of which she now knows my history so it went through rather quickly, then we practiced saying the word focus, tapping my forehead and moving my eyes left and right without thinking of any memorys. Next session we are going to look at one of my memorys without judgement and emotions (which is easy for me considering I have dissociated all my memories from my emotions and from me most of the time) one that I have been doing some journalling about and starting to pay attention to emotions. And the next session we are going to put all the elements together where I have to think about that memory without judgement and emotion (which is relatively easy considering I have separated myself from my emotions anyway through dissociating.) and doing the tapping saying focus and the moving my eyeballs.

My therapist says it may not work for me for the full benefit of it because as a dissociator I have already separated my memories and emotions out of my awareness so we should actually be working on stimulating my senses and emotions not shutting them out more but since I wanted to try it again for a panic attack I keep getting when ever I am in the mall and the meory that matches it is my getting raped in a mall bathroom. We are first going to do this and then after I have the tools (EMDR) as a way to ground myslef we will be going into the emotional stuff about that memory.

http://emdr.com/