Well I managed to drink and smoke less last night. Today I am feeling very agitated and anxious and it is only 10.50am. Tonight I am going to a concert with my boyfriend for his birthday. I put my hand up to be the designated driver so I wouldn't drink so that should keep me on track.
Down to 50mg of Pristiq (from 100mg) and feeling mild side effects but they are better today than yesterday, at least so far. I am really trying to look after myself. It is so hard when the hypomanic wants to party and the mixed state wants to self-destruct.