Hiya PC. Its been about 4 weeks since I posted maybe longer, maybe shorteer. Despite, it feels like forever, when your recovering from depression it seems as tho a day is a lifetime. Anyway, I hope I posted this in the right secttion , wasn't really sure.

First the news. I hurried to my therapist after severe suicidal thoughts emerged, I woke up bright an early about 2 weeks ago to see him. We spoke together, as did my parents. At first he said I needed to go to the hospital, but we found other alternitives, I think he thought a hospital would be more of a distraction to my recoverary.

In the conversation he mentioned he's MOVING!!!!! That shot through my heart, I almost cried.....I thought to myself (why have you waited until now such a rough time to tell me?) So July is his last month, actu
ally he's leaving around the 1st.....what got to me is he thought I knew...I was like no....how was I supposed to know?

I will admit I was very pissed off, sad, and let down. But I quickly bounced back onto my path of happiness and fought to let it leave my mind.

After I left (by the way I have a appointment with my pdoc next week too) I took an angry amount of tears and pushed into being strong. God it was tough, is tough, and is getting tougher. What should I think of my therapist leaving? What do I do? He's my 5th one and I finally found him and liked him! theirs no way to see him where he is moving =( *tears*......................

Also I'd like to apologize for my behavior on PC, I'm not the greatest person, not even close. I love you guys and gals, I expect a miracle from you tho, a miracle that is only possible within, within me. I'm sry to have made anyone distracted,mad, or frustrated or even sad, god bless you all.

With love and support.
Moonkin