{{{{{{{{Jill}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Your input is always valuable to me - please never be afraid to voice what you think.

I'm not sure if before it wasn't working - he was there for me when I needed him, I was able to talk openly to him, and he kept me alive. We discussed things, I applied certain things to problems. His issue is that we didn't work things out so that the problems didn't keep continuing - all we did was deal with them and diffuse the stress at the time.

I did tell him my anger about the DBT group - if I don't go, he won't continue working with me. That isn't "good" for me - that creates hostility. Maybe if he had asked me to go once just to see what it was about, and then make up my own mind about going back..............but that isn't an option.

And yes, that is how it was in my early years and basically my whole life. I know my T believes that these rules are in my best interest, that he wants to help me........I just think that I should have a choice somewhere along the line other than "do this or I won't see you anymore" - he calls it "ineffectual care".

I just don't know how to break down this wall between him and I............I don't think I can walk away from him.

xoxoxoxox


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard