First I'll just say I had a really bad week last week, for various reasons. To the point I only worked a day and a half all week, and made myself physically ill, and ended up at the doctor getting fluids yesterday. My T had asked me days prior if I could come in half an hour later. No problem. But the day of my session, she sent me a text about an hour before session time, said she may be a little late, but she would be there, and that I'd get to meet ***** (her daughter). Honestly, I've had no interest in meeting her daughter. I'm rather envious of her. (pathetic, I know). I think I just had the most awkward session so far, in 8 months of therapy. For four reasons.
1.it had been probably the most difficult of weeks for me since starting therapy
2. she was late
3. her teenage daughter was with her waiting in the waiting room while I had my session
4. she had to end the session early to get somewhere else.

At one point during my (shortened) session, she got up to say something to her daughter quickly. Of course she apologized, but it made me feel like I didn't have her focus 100%, because obviously she had to have thought about something beforehand to get up and talk to her. And, I just felt awkward knowing she was out there. I kept trying to get out of the session. Even when she got there, I kept saying "we don't have to do this, I can go," I just felt like she had such a crazy day, and was running herself ragged. I think the events surrounding my week just had me feeling even more uneasy....so it was just bad timing is all.

I've been beating myself up a bit for my feelings surrounding that session. My T is amazing.... and she has a life too. I think she knew I was pretty uncomfortable. And that makes me feel bad too.