WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!

sorry I'm just scared and frustrated.

Another lonely day, just me and my dog. I feel so heavy for a whole day again. my legs feel so heavy like I would be walking in a lake of mud or sth. my whole body is heavy. even when I sit this damn pressure is crushing me. disney songs on yt and I did some work out in my room. drank a lot of water, yet my lips are so dry. took my dog just outside. and when I was outside I had to come home quickly coz this heavy feelings triggered panic. now still this feelings, and strange feeling in my head. seriously what is wrong with me, even pdoc says it's strange, others don't have feelings like this.. I just want to know....