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Old Jan 17, 2015, 12:51 PM
Anonymous327501
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Hello, all. I have two distinct voices in my head other than my own. One is male, the other female.
The female one is mean. She's discouraging and cruel. When I'm attempting to complete a task that I'm battling through, she tells me things like "what makes you think you're good enough (or smart enough) to get this done?"
When I feel attracted to a guy, she makes me doubt my ability to be attractive. She is the voice of all my insecurities, and doubts. I tell her to shut up. At times, I do so aloud. At times, she listens, at times she goes on and bloody on.

The male voice is kinder. More supportive. That voice encourages me to push on, to look on the bright side, to stay strong, to believe. At times, I respond to him, either in my head or aloud. Lately, I've been talking aloud.

At first, I thought, these voices are merely vocal expressions of my own thoughts, my own doubts (her) and a coping mechanism (him).
I've become concerned now because this afternoon, an argument broke out in my head between him and I over whether having coffee is a good idea or not. When I said rather loudly "what the f*** do you mean I shouldn't have a cup?!" I paused and realized what I was doing.
Are they merely a vocal expression of my doubts and a coping mechanism, or something else? Does anyone else have this problem?

P.S. He lost that argument. Coffee over voices any day.

Lately, I also find myself talking to myself a lot. It began at the beginning of last year. At first, I thought it weird, but decided it was fine as it allowed me to break down problems and tasks and find a solution. It's becoming a bother now because it seems like I'm actually conversing with someone I can't see, like we're deciding on something together. Does this make sense?

Last edited by Anonymous327501; Jan 17, 2015 at 01:01 PM. Reason: extend post
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