Thanks everyone for honesty and now my turn. I went for help many times for strange binge drinking episodes out side my normal behaviour range about 18 months ago. I asked for a bipolar assessment. This was badly done and a misdiagnosis made. Moving on again around alcohol I got diagnosed last Easter with BP 1. I didn't drink a thing for 4months then until around November could manage just once or twice a week a very small amount. Since then have been having short periods of binge drinking, sometimes up to 2 bottles of wine a day. This last one has run for 7 days and has to stop. I know plenty of people who can do this long term but being bipolar, it is like playing Russian Roulette with only one chamber empty. Thus I dry out from today and will post my progress. I love not drinking so get baffled when I go to this zone. I am in a fairly light mixed episode and now at the stage it won't stop until I stop. Thanks for listening.