My birthday is just around the corner "again" for whatever reason. I'm trying hard to get rid of this after holidays depression and fight the birthday depression as well. I try to occupy my mind with things I like, such as music, but it's making it worse. The music places me back to when I was a young man, graduated high school, hit the workforce, and was happy. That was the only time, albeit short lived, but nonetheless the only happy years of my life. I was gung ho with life in front of me.

I am so tired and worn out "from just existing." Anyone else know where I'm coming from?