Somebody who was once close to me recently abandoned me (a friend), even after knowing how alone and severely depressed I was. Some days I blame myself for being too clingy, other days I'm filled with this insatiable anger. I don't exactly punch holes through walls, but it can lead to stress, panic attacks, and violent thoughts. Thoughts of hatred and revenge. The thing is, I'm fully aware these thoughts are horrible, but they don't go away. Am I projecting my hatred for myself on someone else? How do I let go? Have you ever had a similar experience?

(I am seeing a therapist and taking medication)