so are you seeing a t? one that specializes in trauma?

i had lots of voices in my head telling me all kinds of bad things, one that always thought i was better off dead, one that said horrible things about me. i wrote down what it was like for me in there and gave it to t and pdoc and they both mentioned DID but then the conversation went no further.

my t continued to treat me but he never really addressed my trauma. my anxiety continued to build to where it was difficult to function each day. the haldol i was taking for my bipolar shut the voices down.

then i started with a new t who specialized in trauma and dissociation. i had been off the haldol for a while. i chose her cause she did hypnosis and it had worked briefly for the anxiety. i had mentioned the voices in my head and she really explored that.

it turns out that i have Dissociative disorder and those voices were alters. Now that they are getting to talk my anxiety is greatly reduced. I dont suffer from it every day. they were just wanting to get out.

i have a journal where i write to mine. we talk back and forth about things. it turns out things like my agoraphobia and fear of connecting with people are more based on their fears than my own. they are just trying to protect me.

so discuss your voices with your mental health professionals. take care.