It's really hard. I'm coming to realize our problems but it's hard to keep her at arms reach with two little ones. I just feel guilty she can't just be a grandma. When we had our big blow up I was called selfish, crazy and that I'm in the wrong, thank you for your answers. It helps hearing that another person would feel the same way and understands what I meant. Sometimes I feel like she's the middle sister and not my mom. I've also had problems expressing and explaining myself in the past, and well it's just a whole can of worms. I did talk to her the other day with out problem, I've been keeping her at arms reach, what she doesn't know won't come back to bite me in the butt. It's insane to have to hide the most mundane things.

Any ways I'm rambling lol I read the other day that if you wouldn't do that to your kids it's a problem, and that is one thing I know I would never do to my kids. When they break up there was a reason even if I don't know the reason. As a parent I have to be on their side (not in a psycho way my kids are Human and going to make mistakes) but I'm on their side.

Thank you all so much hugs