I used to be the kid who got everything he wanted even when I didn't want it. Then my parents got financially screwed over by their own poor decisions and illegal mortgage modifications from the bankers/timeshare guys who fell and lost their company into the tank and went broke and all their shares and stocks disappeared in 2008.

So it destroyed my parents credit since then, I've been struggling a lot many winters. We don't have much food as we used to, I'm happy we do go to st. vincent de paul and other charities to help us with food. At the same time, I starve myself to conserve on it longer. I also, feel that it's killed my future in a lot of ways.

I can't afford college while paying for insurance a house and every bill that I can never afford working at mcdonalds. I can't get ahead in life when not having finances holding me back, my parents income is too high for college financial aid/FAFSA to actually give me barely enough to survive a semester.

Rather I chose not to go, I'll be an under grad for idk how long. I didn't choose this life and my parents credit is so destroyed living anywhere is almost unbearable, but I'm grateful they get some things going.

I hate how my friends who aren't in my position hate me or be mean to me for not contributing. When I can and able to I do all the time. Some friends I do contribute a lot of the time for my own stuff or pay for things for them.

It's frustrating, at 21 you can't enjoy being young. I'm not college poor, I'm below that. I can't afford food. I barely now only have 200 in my account for it to be taken away and chipped away to about 20 bucks from all my checks. I should actually have 1,500 now and on top of that other income as well, but that's all gone away now.

Dating, forget about it.. I don't think one girl will take me seriously. Rather, that's not my concern anymore, my sister was so lucky to get out of it, because she lives with her bf and pretty much gets a free stay and all this nice stuff.
What I get nothing, I can't do what she does... I find it so angering. I can't enjoy life without having no money at all when I'm working very hard to get more hours they can't give me any hours. Plus now moving, I can't get to my job a lot easier now on top of that. I really hat how they aren't giving me enough hours to pay for this stuff.

We are moving out of this house we are renting because we can't afford any of it. It's just not fair. I didn't want to be here and I hate how all my friends have their future's paved for and mine destroyed by things I have no control over.

Many days I just want to kill myself in an areas where my body can't be found so a funeral wouldn't be in the question. I'd just be missing. I wouldn't want anyone to pay for my funeral. This is such ****.

I want to see my doctor and therapists. I can't afford to get myself better medically. I can't vent my problems. I bottle them up and have no control of this. My money doesn't belong to me when I earn it. It never feels like I earned anything I work for rather. I'm just struggling to get more pissed off. I feel moving in with my cousin's isn't going to make things better, I feel my issues would not help me there. I'll be an almost hour and a half away from my job. I can't transfer to a closer location because it's privatized.

I can apply to a closer one, but what good would that do? I really don't have much of a choice. Either I get some money or not have any at all.

I have a cyst that's growing in my jaw and face that's very large and it's going inward to my face. My neuro problems have gotten much worse when they happen and my wisdom teeth look like they won't be coming out anytime soon. Rather I'm just waiting for a near fatal infection to put me in the ICU from it. All thanks to this f'd up situation I'm in.

That gets me so mad how people treat people who are in my position like ****.