can i say, you crack me up? i love all your little side notes offering assurance. i think you are really insightful, working hard on your coping skills, and very brave for wanting to open up to T. Depending on what else you have told t so far, he/she may already have suspicions. When i had things that where really hard to talk about and i didnt know how to introduce them, i just wrote them down and handed T the paper to read and then we talked about it. I had no problem talking about it. I just didnt know how to introduce it. T was usually good with asking the appropriate questions from there. i just could never figure out how to go from t asking me How are you? OK...to I was molested. so it was, i have something really difficult to talk about, but i feel it is really important, i just dont know how to say it, so i wrote it down. then i would hand them the paper. I know, i am a chickenshit....lol

oh, panic attacks..........a way to stop them is to relax. it is physically impossible to panic and relax at the same time. you dont even have to really relax. just fool your brain into thinking you are relaxing. imagine as if you just did a meditation or had a massage and all your muscles have turned into limp noodles. just let them all go. this will stop the panic attack. you may have to do it a couple times over your first tries, but when i started doing this it ended the attacks and soon i never had a panic attack again,